On Self-Medicating + Feeling Trapped In My Own Life

Only 4 years ago, I felt completely trapped.
My business sucked.
My relationship sucked.
My life sucked.
If you had been a fly on the wall you would have seen me potter around all day like a busy bee (crazy woman?).
Using cigarettes and alcohol to try and take the edge off a little bit.

I was a ball of nerves, full of anxiety and with the weight of the world on my shoulders.
Young children. Young business. Dying Relationship.
I couldn’t see a way out and I felt really alone because I didn’t know anyone who could REALLY understand my situation.

I was on my knees.
Until I met my coach, Louise George.

I called her one morning on a friend’s recommendation.
I hired her 30 minutes later.

I had never had a coach before and I was terrified of spending THAT MUCH MONEY on a whim.
I didn’t sleep that night.
I should have used that money to buy a house or save it for my kids’ education, I thought.

As it turns out, investing in coaching is the best money I’ve ever spent.
I would have spent 10 times what I paid if I’d known my life would be like it is today.

Everything has changed.
I am now moving into my dream home with my fiancé and our children.
My coaching company is thriving and I have the honour of working with incredible human beings across the globe.
I get to travel a lot and I dictate how I want to feel and how I want to live my life.
My life is way better than I ever imagined it would be.

The best part is CREATING MY LIFE DAY BY DAY.
LIVING MY LIFE LIKE IT’S ONE BIG ADVENTURE.

Tonight, I’m off to an Improv class with my fiancé and who knows what I’ll be up to tomorrow.

I love the freedom I created in my life.
Of course, like everyone else, I have my own struggles…mostly in my own head.
Every now and then I get caught up with my inner mean girl/psychobitch mode.
You know what I’m talking about right?

My point is, it IS possible to REINVENT YOURSELF and EXPLORE new ways of being in the world.
When you decide to let go of your painful past, and create a new future yourself, everything changes.
Everything changes with YOU.

So if you are feeling trapped right now, know that there is a way out.
You don’t have to keep doing it all on your own.
Do not resign yourself to how things are.
You know this isn’t YOUR REAL LIFE.

And you’re darn right.

I also want to share with you some insight from my TV obsession of the moment: Dr Quinn, Medicine Woman. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvFqQJ9Hy5w&feature=youtu.be